TWO THOUSAND THIRTEEN…
Was actually a very intense year for me, and registered as such. In a good, life-affirming way. I was blessed that the lows were nowhere near as low as they once have been, said frankly. I was even more blessed that those so-called “technical lows” really were few and far between, grace of God.
It’s really been a great year. & i OWN that.
it’s funny. Standing here it’s like “yeah, not that much happened in 2013, but then the pause goes down and i’m kinda stunned. and grateful. Because it didnt Have to be like this.
In a very simple way I didnt know i was missing “hope. I’ve been living out of a suitcase for 2 months shy of 6years. Who knew that having “space” was conducive to expanding your concept of what hope is and can be?
But then there’s the question. The one that looms for me every year, patiently waiting to be answered:
“Did God lie? Was 2013 Even Better than 2012?”
it’s a question i usually can’t answer for a while. Lots of rumination etc., But this time? This new Years eve i can say unequivocally YES.
That my new years eve day consisted of pushing myself to hit the bullseye on a few more of these cooking theorems i’ve been working this year…that there was time& space to even indulge in that… it the beauty of God to me.
Because like i said earlier…it REALLY didnt have to be like this. Life. I’m just feeling gratitude, yall.
2013 was intense as fuck. in every department of my life.
But hands down, it blew 2012 away. I am closer to who i’ve always wanted to be. And that’s huge. That’s that kind of list …that inner list kind of stuff that sometimes even you yourself are not privy to until you’re nailing whatever it is On that list or gearing up to go for it again.
..and i Pray 2014 exceeds every joy received, trumps every bit of love given by the thousands.
…happy new year, everyone.
With Love & Happiness,
December 31st, 2013 835pm